What I'm listening to today: Forever - Jason Fioto

Tonight let’s live in forever
So we can
Just hold on to these moments
That we made as we share
These dreams together
We’ll look back one day and remember
That these are the best, the best days of our life

 We have thousands of moments in our lives, millions even, but sometimes, a moment stuns us as it happens, and we know that it's not just one moment out of a thousand.  Sometimes you just know, that what you're doing, is not simply a moment.  You just know, that right then, you're making a memory.  There's just something about that moment in time that is just so profound or staggering, that you just know deep down, that it's something that you're going to remember for the rest of your life.  In that split second you know, that how you feel, or the weather, or the smell in the air, everything about it, is going to live on forever, in your memory.

What I'm listening to today: Long Way Down - Forty Foot Echo

Could you ever see yourself,
In another place,
Far away from everything.
What a perfect space,
Nothing ever, nothing same

But I know where you come from,
To find yourself again.

 Somewhere I read once that I'm afraid to be lonely but I like to be left alone, and I guess that's true.  But sometimes you have to look past all that...just look past everything.  Guys and friends, drinking and drama, and just think about what your life looks like in someone elses eyes.  I mean who are we going to be?  Some people say that the things that we say are what defines us, but I think that's wrong.  It's not what we say that makes us who we are, it's what we do.  If you want to be a different person than just do it, stop talking about it and just be who you are, or who you want to be.  It's so hard to just be who you are, because you're always judged.  And we all do it, no one can honestly say that they don't judge people before they actually get to know them.  And once people think of you one way there's nothing you can do to change their minds. That's just how it is.  Sometime I just want to get out of here, and find a place where no one knows me, and no one knows my background and no one knows about my parents and they can just see me for who I am...not who they think I am.  But with all the stereotypes and labelling I don't think that place exists.

Soundtrack to Our Movie - Mae

Opening Credits: Hard To Find - American Analog Set

Waking Up: Mixtape - Butch Walker / Song For A Sleeping Girl - Devics / Brand New Day - Forty Foot Echo / A Bad Dream - Keane

Falling In Love: Love Song - The Cure / Let's Make This Moment a Crime - The Format

Breaking Up: Breaking My Heart Again - Aqualung / I'm Going to Stop Pretending That I Didn't Break Your Heart - The Eels / This Year's Most Open Heartbreak - Funeral For A Friend / Empty Apartment - Yellowcard / Hanging on For Hope - The New Amsterdams

Prom: Summer Wind Was Always Our Song - The Ataris / Let The Reigns Go Loose - The Get Up Kids

Life: What If's And Maybe's - Bromheads Jacket / Free Falling Without A Parachute - Senses Fail / A Place In Displacement - South

Mental Breakdown: Re-Gaining Unconsciosness - NOFX / To Hell With Good Intentions - Mclusky

Driving: London Calling - The Clash / The Devil Went Down to Georgia - Charlie Daniels Band

Flashback: The Wind That Blew My Heart Away - Fruit Bats / Lesson Learned - Ray Lamontagne / Who I Am Hates Who I've Been - Reliant K / I'm Alright (You Gotta Go There To Come Back) - Stereophonics

Making Up: Say Yes - Elliot Smith / Return to Me - Matthew Ryan

Wedding: Sometimes You Can't Make It On Your Own - U2

Birth of Child: She's Perfect - Jimmy Eat World

Final Battle: Running Up That Hill - Placebo

Death Scene: Forever and Ever Amen - 88mm / Lavinia - The Veils

Funeral Song: Hallelujah - Jeff Buckley

End Credits: A Lifetime - Better Than Ezra / A Movie Script Ending - Death Cab For Cutie

Soundtrack to My Life - Random Shuffle

Opening Credits: Desperatley Wanting - Better Than Ezra

Waking Up: Blue Lights - Pretty Girls Make Graves

First Day at Highschool: Faith Hope Love - Starsailor

Fight Song: Crosses Count - Jack's Broken Heart

Falling In Love: Dancing With Tears In My Eyes - Damien Rice

Breaking Up: Iris - Goo Goo Dolls

Prom: Burning Bright - The Shinedown

Life: Echo - Vertical Horizon

Mental Breakdown: Post Blue - Placebo

Driving: Son's Gonna Rise - Citizen Cope

Meditation: Lavinia - The Veils

Flashback: Slide - Tyler Hilton

Making Up: The Place You Have Come To Fear The Most - Dashboard Confessional

Wedding: Your Name Here (Sunrise Highway) - Straylight Run

Birth of Child: Baby Blue - Tremolo

Final Battle: Won't Back Down - Mat Kearney

Death Scene: Thoughts Before Me - Amber Pacific

Funeral Song: Do You Dream Of Me? - Across The Sky

End Credits: Everybody's Changing - Keane

What I'm listening to today: Hear You Me - Jimmy Eat World

What would you think of me now?
So lucky, so strong, so proud
I never said thank you for that
Now I'll never have a chance

What would they think of me now?  Would they like the person that I've become?  What would they say about my choices and how I live my life?